stupid.
stupid.
stupid.
stupid.
stupid.
stupid.
i'm in the middle of stupidness

oh

oh~my home

my eyes only can see a vision of my home
my ears can only hear steps towards home
my nose incredibly can sense sweet rosy petals of softlan
which my umi usually use when she's doing her wash-of course,at home
my mind already gone far away to home

oh.how i much i miss my home

i
must.have.urgently.need
to get back home

homesick

broken hearted girl

hubungan kita tidak seutuh itu
persahabatan kita tidak seteguh itu
i keep hurting

nice bag anyway

Melaka

last weekend me and my family went to malacca
all the excitement and enjoyment we had.. are..wordless
so..let the pictures tell the story..
(padahal mls nk taip pnjang2..hee)


my beautiful sister..model of the day

parents

with my umi

with my abah



flamingos

beca yg sgt colourful
bunyi dan cahaya


so, basically, we went to Zoo Melaka and Bandar Hilir, Melaka
of course..there were hundreds of pics taken
tapi..sudah malas nk upload..
hee

cuti2 Malaysia
go and visit Malaysia everyone~

turn over a new leaf

well..i'm about to shut this blog down.
tapi akhirnya rasa x sanggup.
blog ini mempunyai nilai sentimental yg tersendiri.
both pain and sweet values.

but..despite all above.i decided to turn over a new leaf.
this time is for real.left all bad memories behind.
stand firm and move ahead uswatun hasanah.

before i go further.mind u that i never good in words.
so..sorry,for this post may hurt somebody somewhere.

selama saya menyepi dari blogging.
i've been soooooooooo extremely bz.
tesis thing, Lab-ing things...i have no life at all..
9 am to 5 pm,well sumtyms 6...the place u can find me only at Lab Kimia 1134.
or..mostly i'll be at G1123- Makmal penyediaan makanan.
and..my night life will be on farming at farmville.or..fishing at fishville.
yes.
i know..pathetic me for only have a life with others only at alam maya..

like i have other choice..ok?.

for u to have a degree in Bachelor of Food Science n Nutrition.
u have to have been sooooo patient.
to deal with chemicalsss thingss..microb thingsss.
and for me...bread thingss...tiap-tiap hari saya buat roti.
saya dah naek muak dengan roti.and..fortunately..i'm not dealing with microb.
miss aifa..u are the chosen one..sabar ye..hihi.

selama saya mengorbankan cuti saya untuk membuat tesis yg sgt best ini. saya tgal di bilik
K16B417.with miss janah.
not much memories we spent
as...both of us all doing about the same each day along this break.
of course..doing the lab things

urgh.enough talking about this lab.tesis. things
make me feel dizzy so sudden.

and for today..its the maal hijrah.
salam maal hijrah everyone.
how have u been?.
how have ur iman been?.
and..for today too.
i've been missing my friends a lot.
we used to be close dear.
but...sudah ditakdirkan kita hanya bersama just for only 6 years.
its okey
i believe this is the best for us
we maybe hate it. well...i hate it a lot
tapi..si-DIA lebih mengetahui ape yg terbaik utk kta
jika perpisahan ini sudah di takdirkan
dan sudah di tetapkan sbg jalan yg terbaik utk kita
let it be
saya redha.

it just..u guys must have a great life ahead..okey?

salam maal hijrah~

cik nana yang sudah grad..
bestnye..huhuhu

tidak lupa juga..selamat pengantin baru untuk kazen saya
Puan Siti Nurul Huda
semoga berkekalan hingga akhirnya
amin~

tekanan

argh...
srabutnye tesis ni
x sukee
uhuk

.fall.in.love.with. Muhammad S.A.W

people..
do listen to this nasyeed
i'm not a fan of nasyeed..but this one is sooo beautiful..
i first heard in sha koy's blog
good job sha..
u've done your dakwah task nicely..hee
it makes me fall in love more and more to our Prophet.,
Muhammad S.A.W



here is the story about this nasyeed

It was an old woman. she was moving somewhere because people were talking about Muhammad (S). she couldnt stand it. the Prophet (S) saw here carrying her belongings somewhere and so he helped her. he was very kind and nice to her. when she inquired about his name, he said "Muhammad". she was shocked that he is such a good person and felt ashamed that she thought so bad about him and she hadnt seen Muhammad (S) before this so she didnt know him.

i'm fine
tq

hurt

there's
no more nice smiles
no more sweet laughters
no more cute cards


we're so much in hurts
both of us~

this kind of moment. hope to turn back time~

salam kemaafan

saya pernah membaca satu artikel dari laman web langit ilahi
milik saudara Hilal Asyraf
petikan artikelnya berbunyi begini
______________________________________________________________

Hari ini saya teringat akan satu khutbah yang dibacakan oleh khatib Solat Jumaat di Masjid Universiti Yarmouk. Khutbah ini, adalah khutbah lama. Saya dengar ketika awal-awal saya datang ke Jordan.

Dia berbicara tentang Silaturrahim.

Ada sesuatu yang menarik dan lain dari lain dalam khutbah khatib itu.

Pemahaman berkenaan ukhuwwah, dari satu sisi yang jarang kita lihat.

Kenapa saya tulis berkenaan ukhuwwah ini?

Sebab saya harap, kita berlumba-lumba menghargai sahabat-sahabat kita, dan bukan sekadar menanti dihargai.

Di dalam khutbahnya yang sekitar dua puluh minit itu, khatib ada menyebut,

“ Adakah apabila sahabat kita itu tidak menziarahi kita, kita akan katakan kepadanya, aku tidak mahu menziarahinya, kerana dia tidak menziarahi aku?”

Saya tertarik dengan ayat itu.

Sudah lumrah manusia sukakan balasan, ataupun sekurang-kurangnya penghargaan. Maka di dalam berukhuwwah, kadangkala hati tidak lepas dari rasa ingin diihtiram oleh sahabatnya. Maka berlakulah lintasan-lintasan hati seperti,

“ Alah, buat apa nak bagi hadiah kepada dia, dia tak bagi hadiah kat aku pun”

“ Buat apa doa untuk dia, silap-silap dia pun tak doa untuk aku”

“ Buat apa susah-susah tolong dia, dia tolong aku pun tak pernah”

“ Penatlah tolong dia, dia bukan tolong aku pun”

Maka ukhuwwah pun goyah, lalu rosak dan terputus.

Khatib berkata,

“ Hakikat yang sebenar adalah, apakah kita sudah melaksanakan tanggungjawab kita dalam menjaga silaturrahim ini?”

Ya benar. Pokok pangkal halnya, adakah kita ini sebenarnya sudah selesai tanggungjawab kita dalam menjaga silaturrahim antara mu’min. Umum sudah ketahui firman ALLAH S.W.T. yang berbunyi,

“ Sesungguhnya setiap mu’min itu bersaudara, maka perdamaikanlah antara keduanya, moga-moga kamu beroleh rahmat” Surah Al-Hujurat ayat 10.

itu adalah sebahagian petikan dari artikelnya

kalau kawan-kawan nak baca sampai habis

sila la ke laman web beliau

tertarik dengan ajakan untuk menyempurnakan kewajipan saya dalam menjaga silaturrahim antara mu'min, khususnya antara sahabat-sahabat saya, disini, biarlah saya dahulu yang mulakan salam kemaafan diatas segala kesalahan yang telah melukakan hati kawan-kawan semua.sesungguhnya, saya 100% manusia biasa, yang pastinya akan melakukan kesilapan tak kira dalam sedar atau tidak. cuma, maybe tahap ego saya tidak setinggi sesetengah manusia yang lain.

pohon maaf diatas kelancangan kata-kata yang telah merobek hati

maaf diatas janji2 yang tak ditepati

maaf diatas kelancaran jari dalam memberi komen2 yang tidak disenangi di dalam blog-blog, facebook, dan seumpamanya

maaf kerana tidak dapat keluar ke kl, untuk spend masa bersama

(bagi sesiapa yang membuat tesis,dan telah pon melalui alam tesis ni, kamu spatutnya faham dengan situasi begini =p)

maaf kerana menimbulkan situasi, dengan bf bole kluar tp dgn member x bole

maaf kepada sesiapa yang belum saya langsaikan hutang saya.

(kalo ade mane2 hutang, sila remind ye, dah lupe.hehe)

maaf kepada mereka yang telah merindui saya, namun tidak pula saya menghubungi kalian

dan akhir sekali, maaf jika post ini tidak disenangi oleh kamu-kamu semua

sesungguhnya, jika ditakdirkan esok sudah tiada untuk saya, saya tidak mahu urusan saya antara manusia tidak selesai. salam kemaafan ini tulus ikhlas dari hati saya.

have a good life people~

good luck in your final exam

saya dan coursemate saya, janah

kekalkan daku

turn over a new leaf
---------------------------------------------------------
right after dis
saya akan cuba untuk berfikir dengan penuh berhikmah

sy cuba utk menerima segala yang terjadi pada saya
sebagai mematuhi rukun iman yang ke-6
mempercayai dan beriman dengan qada' dan qadar
rukun ini diturunkan kerana,
si Dia lebih mengetahui apa yang diperlukan oleh hamba-hambanya

sesungguhnya..

islam itu sangat indah
islam itu sangat lengkap
islam memang diturunkan kerana dia memenuhi keperluan manusia
bukan sekadar sebuah agama
malah sebagai cara hidup


kekalkan aku di jalan mu ini ya Allah.
amin~

i'm good.TQ

well..
--------------------------------------------
it's not that bad to be alone anyway
i'm really fine

i'm much better right now
i'm not dat alone actually
i still have my umi.adik.k.ngah.abah.n my sepet
and that is more than enough
i'll stop open up my heart. no more
what's enough is enough

maybe i should turn back and just being original me instead.

already.gone

there will be no man..no more

searching

i am at lost
and searching
too much things i've lost

.sincere apology.

there's a say...love makes ur life upside down
lately..i've been yelling so loud to my sepet
keep thinking..talking..about his bad to me
and keep being mean to him
but still, my heart is broken for acting like that

i'm sorry

i keep wanting a break from you
but again, my heart is broken for asking that

and yet. you're such a great man
you know exactly what i needed most, more than i do
you just bear yourself with my nonsense act
but of course, with a little complaint. =p

to think i might not gonna have a better man than you
makes it so hard for me to ever let you go

i, deep from my heart, love you, Mohd Syazwan,
very much.and much

and of course, sorry for the last miserable days we had

i'll be right beside you, dear

.tamat sudah.

tahniah kepada mereka2 yang sudah ber graduasi...
anda sekarang sedang melangkah ke dunia yg sebenar
untuk saya, insyaAllah..tahun depan saya akan bersama kalian
untuk menjengah dan memasuki ke dalam masyarakat kita

hm.kawan2 seperjuangan..
kawan2 yang selalu ada untuk mendengar rintihan
dan gembira saya.sudah tiada di sisi
masing2 dengan kehidupan masnig2
terasa diri keseorangan.sunyi.
dan terasa seperti UKM ni asing walaupun sudah 4 tahun kat sini

ini lah yang dikatakan.nikmat yang ditarik oleh-NYA
namun.masih saya dalam golongan yang bertuah
kerana di beri kesempatan untuk di pertemukan dengan mereka2 ini
satu persinggahan dalam hidup
untuk saya belajar dari nya

terima kasih kalian
kerana
naik jatuh nya saya sepanjang dengan anda semua
telah mengajar saya erti kehidupan
telah mengajar saye erti sahabat
erti memberi
erti menerima
dan erti kehilangan

semoga.anda diberi kekuatan terus dari-NYA
untuk berjuang di medan baru
medan pekerjaan

bagi sesiapa yang masih blom dapat keje
insyaAllah.yakin bahawa DIA sedang merancang yang terbaik untuk anda

kawan saya.nana.yang sudah grad.
tahniah~

p/s: nana.bila dah dapat keje.kamu wajib blanja aku!hehehe

hapPy BirThday~

happy birthday
to both of my father and little sister
abah and adik~

i miss you both..a lot!

i miss my family so much
today..they were celebrating the birthday girl..
i wish i was there too..
be a part of them..
well..maybe next time..i'll be there with them

birthday girl..and birthday boy
hehe
semoga anda selalu sehat.
selalu berada dalam keredhaan Allah
di murahkan rezeki..dan dilapangkan dada..
Amin~

birthday girl

&

birthday boy~

taking a break

have u ever feel of being tired with what u used to have
u ever thought of letting go ur dreams when u finally reach it?
well.i do

hurm
hari semakin susah.
semakin sesak.
semakin sukar utk membuat keputusan
semakin susah utk memilih yang betul
maybe. i should take a break

all i do is crying.n grumping around
keep forgetting the bless i have around me
maybe.i should take a break

i need to think right
i'm taking a break

miss my cats at home

.deeper conversation.

i love this song very much
by yuna
i dedicate it specially for you
mohd syazwan mohd rasli

.engineer gonna be.
...............................................

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
And im learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And im learning you

And if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

.sickness.

its been a while
since last post

ayat di atas di guna apabila anda malas untuk meng up date blog anda

past few days.its been hectic
1.pemilihan tajuk thesis
2.perbentangan li
3.assignmentssss
and
4.saya telah jatuh sakit

pada mulanya, saya ingat kan demam biasa je
so.xde la nk heran sangat
pegi pK(pusat kesihatan) pon dengan konfidennya
tetapi.bila sampai kt pk tu
kami (dat tym,i went there along with aifa)
kena buat ujian saringan H1N1
alamak.sangat cuak la masa tu.
sbb,kriteria2 org yg berpotensi ade H1N1 adalah :

a)demam
b)sakit tekak
c)selsema
d)sakit sendi
e)hm.dh x igt ape dia next kriteria

and.i had all of the symptoms,except for the flu

bila dah check up ngn doktor
Alhamdulillah.
i negatively had those H1N1
tapi.demam kali ni laen macam sket
saya sakit satu badan
badan saya sensitif terhadap sentuhan.
bila sentuh je.sakit
hati saya gelisah semacam
and.saya hanya kuat apabila makan ubat
bila kesan ubat dh hilang.sakit saya datang kembali

secara jujur.saya banyak juga mengeluh
dan mengadu (sori umi n syazwan.hehe)
namun.saya cuba juga untuk terus kuat dan tabah
dalam menempuh dugaan yang tak seberapa ni.
berkat berpegang pada kata2 yang mengatakan
sakit ini adalah salah satu cara untuk Allah menghapuskan dosa2 kecil
saya kembali bersemangat
terima kasih kerana mengingatkan saya pada perkara ini.syazwan

little nikmat had been taken from me.and already i'm at lost
Subhanallah


ada gaya doktor x?hehe

i.need.help

i just started my class for this sem
already busy around on thinking
report li.tittle for thesis.choosing the supervisor
and.bla2..
well....keep busy on thinking uswatooon....
soon u're gonna miss out a lot of things surrounding you..

haih..i'm in da susah hati mode right now

selalu,saya memikirkan
kenapa saya ditempatkan di tempat yang tidak pernah saya pilih
kenapa saya selalu diberikan perasaan gundah, perasaan marah. dan sedih

kenapa saya diberikan sesuatu yang saya x suka?

soalan2 diatas,byk dipetik dari blog seorang teman
nampaknya,kami mempunyai persoalan yang sama
dan.mungkin mempunyai rasa yang sama ketika ini

dan.saya percaya.soalan2 ini,seringkali bermain di fikiran banyak org
bergantung kepada iman sesorang itu utk mencari jawapan samua ini

dan.bagi saya.
saya harus memperkuatkan lagi iman saya
saya harus mendalami.dan menerima dengan sepenuh hati
apa itu qada' dan qadar
yang penting,saya harus mengenali dengan lebih mendalam
siapa itu Rabb saya,dan Rabb anda semua.Allah.
mungkin,lately,saya agak jauh dengan-NYA
terlalu memikirkan duniawi
perasaan2 seperti ini dikurniakan pada saya
bukan untuk menyusahkan saya,tetapi
hanya cuma untuk saya mencari jalan kembali kepada-NYA
betapa Allah menyanyangi hambanya

seperti pepatah yang diperkatakan oleh saudara Hilal Asyraf :

"walau diri seringkali alpa,walau di beban segunung dosa,walau jauh dari rahmat-NYA,Allah tidak melupakan kita"

saya ingin menjaga iman saya
ini hasrat saya yang terbesar
namun.saya sekarang seperti kalah terhadap dugaan
kalah terhadap godaan dan nafsu
sepertinya, saya memerlukan pertolongan
help!

terima kasih dayah.atas pesanan anda tadi
"jaga iman ya us"
satu peringatan yang sangat bermakna
terima kasih suriani,hidayah, sebab dtg UKM hari ni
seronok sangat keluar tadi
nanti keluar lagi ye

teringat plak zaman seronok kt MPOB dulu.huhu

a.long.post

it's a long.long time after my last post

now i'm back
doing this blogging
and of course,things happen
and...its going to be a long post this time

1st thing i couldn't barely forget
during a month of june,
i was no longer called as a trainee student of MPOB
its a sad thing.i even cried.lots of tears i shed
though i've tried hardly to stop it from falling (my tears).
it seems i've known those great people for so long
thanks
for all of you
for being in one of my chapter of life
but,i believe, life really teaches us something
Allah teaches us,with His own ways
and,for these time.
i learned.on how to let go
i learned.nothing in this world is really mine
i wish i could have them in my life
but they are not mine.they are Allah's
He has great plans for them.
and the plans maybe will not be me included
and i believe,He do have plans for me too
i'm not gonna sit here and hanging by our sweet memories forever
so.i let go of them
i let go of you guys.
i'm gonna miss all of you
and gonna miss Dr.Karimah too

anak2 dr.karimah

secondly.my family and i (except my father) moved out
moved to a new house.yea~
but still in kota bharu.
a nice house i can tell
big enough for 4 peoples in there
hehe
for the time of moving out.
i extremely been busy.
it tooks a week to move out
and i even put some paint on my room and furniture
i like it so much
so bad i didin't make a try to sleep in it
bcoz i have to be back in UKM,one day after i finished decorated my room
arghhhh..i'm being patient now

3rdly, my family and i now.running a hamper business
thanks to aifa who gave this idea to me
the business runs well i guess
at least for beginner like us
so.anyone who is interesting on having hampers on your occassion
any occasion,any price,any number of time you would like to have
you can contact me or this number
019-9219188
but.this service only available at kelantan only.for the time being

4thly, ive learned
after 1 year being with my syazwan
i realized.he do really loves me
thank you
for your sincere feeling towards me
i couldn't even let you go now.

again.mohd syazwan mohd rasli

i know.u are of my dugaan hidup that Allah gives to me
i'm maybe not strong enough to let u go
i'm not strong enough to not keep thinking about you
but i wish
i could thinking more about Allah instead of you
i really want to thank Allah for this blessings i have these days
i want to thank you.Wan.for not leaving me alone
not even a day.not even a minute.and not even a second
thank you
i want to thank my family for giving me this homesick symptoms
and of course.my great friends who always be with me

my two little sisters

and.these days.i do feel.world being nice to me

.aku punya kamu.

before i go any further for this post

i would like to extend my apology

i'm sorry

i never good in words

saya telah melukai hati kamu.maaf

sorry for breaking my promise

but i couldn't just leave my new interest on this bloggy

or.maybe I'll end it for good.or maybe not

why i love to blog.

dat's your 1st question

why i post everything about me.about how i feel

to show off to public?

dat's your next question

i start on this bloggy thing.just only for past several months

and I'm already so into it

your questions do make sense

i start on thinking about it

and.i'm still in doubt whether i have to end it or not

yet.I'll end it for good.maybe.or maybe not

i start with this blogging since February.since i'm in mpob.

when i'm 22 at age.

since then.never miss out to view this page.even for a day.

since then.i keep on viewing my other friends' blogg as well.

i start on realise dat.my life does doing its upside down thing

i was 21st at age when i finally have a happy start of living

its when my sepet happen in my life

hopefully to have a happy ending as well. 

semoga kita bisa bercinta di syurga jua sayang.

I'm 22 at age when i really feel like breathing

i'm 22 at age when i really feel like i'm living

i'm 22 at age when i really believe.good people still living in this cruel world.

and.the best thing is

i'm 22 at age when i start to know who's my great lover,DIA really are.

alhamdulillah.i'm still living at this 22 at age.

give me some more time ALLAH

so i can know you much-much better

i wanna be close to YOU

and.again.i start on blogging when i'm 22 at age.

i know.its a late start.never mind of that

i'm a slow starter anyway

but.better late than never.

now.i'm posting on why i love to blog recently at time

rite now.i'm so in love

i'm full with love

i have my family's love

i have my sepet's love

i have a bunch of love from my besties-yin and nana

i have a great love from my newestet friend of mpob

and.most importantly. i can feel the love from my great lover..DIA.

for having these great amount of love.

i would like to express my love through this.through blogging.

i never regrets for all the feeling i had post before.

its the feel that i would like my those lovers to know

but.if.those expression did hurt you. i'm sorry

i'm sorry.but i'll keep on blogging.or maybe not

.......

i'll be resting from blogging for a while

and.the award goes to....

huyea~

i received an award

it's my honor to have this

thanks pona

but.for having this meaningful award

there are rules and regulation applied

there are :

1.copy award di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda.

2.nyatakan 5 fakta menarik ttg pemberi award ini..

hurm.

for pona whose giving this

i can say

she is such a sweet girl
with a beautiful smile

coooool girl

i always see her happy for

24 hours

and a loving person

3. Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10

fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih

penerima award seterusnya.

facts bout me :

1. love to read

2.lately,i easily cry over a little thing..haih.

3.love to be happy.everyone does i guess.hihi

4.i'm having a syndroms

of twisted minded.or.rather said.keling minded.mind u

5.can be so simple and can be so complicated at a time

6.hates anything related or

corelated with insects.especially cockroach.eeuuw

7.i hate bossy person and also moody person.not my

type

(though sumtyms me myself is a moody person.aiyoo)

8.i'm not a good students

9.love music

10.rite now.i'm in a confusing state.

4. Anda perlu mencari

sepuluh penerima award seterusnya dan desribe pasal mereka

aiyay~

mau hantar sepuluh ke?

oke,i'll try my best

hurm

10 penerima yg bertuah

ialah :

1.yin = impatient one.hahaha

2.nana = the blur one.hehehe

3.aifa = motherly

4.kecik = very the noty

one.haih

5.aini = so coooool

6.sobri = sasterawan negara

7.maru = macam haram nk update dia pya blog.huh

8.paah = beutiful girl

9.shakoy = stylo one

10.mohd syazwan mohd rasli = secretly i'll tell him

wut i see on him.hee

harap.smua penerima award ni happy la hendaknya.